Salvation

Why is it that sometimes what we have lost becomes our ultimate goal ?
I lost what I thought at that time was most important to me. When I look back now...I see much of it is just overrated.
Is this going to happen again ? Am I going to get it someday again? God..this craving.

We spend our lives wanting this and that and not once pondering over what we need . It sounds holistic to believe that I don't want anything . I just need myself.

Am I being selfish here? I don't know..but this is my salvation !